Beautiful Mind Episode 13 Kwoncap [TriAngle]
“I feel a cold northern breeze play upon my cheeks, which braces my nerves and fills me with delight.” (Frankenstein – Mary Shelley)
“Whatever you say,
I hear it as “I love you.”
I am sorry, but I can’t do as you asked.
I can’t leave you alone.”
∇ The “perfect” world collapsed; the dawn of a new era arrived. ∇
I personally found the explanation behind the MRI scans quite satisfactory and the compass was pointing towards the human factor that was able to overshadow medical science and surgical skills’ success. Young Bae and Dr. Leenkenstein were wallowing in their own complexes would be fine as long as their confrontation wouldn’t affect anyone else, they were adults after all. What is unforgivable is the fact that an innocent child’s soul had been sacrificed on the altar of personal gain, selfishness and ambition. After Young Bae found out that the MRI scans had been switched he rushed to inform Dr. Leenkenstein who was celebrating his newly acquired position as a professor instead of Young Bae. After he drank, Young Bae approached Dr. Leenkenstein who had been ignoring him all this time and he erupted in front of everyone. However, Dr. Leenkenstein’s reputation, as the one who had saved the life of an orphan and had also adopted him, was an impenetrable fortress and nobody believed Young Bae’s accusations that everything was a lie. Falling off the balcony was an accident while he was attacking Dr. Leenkenstein who chose to run away and call an ambulance from a phone booth. Once again, he put his reputation over someone else’s life to the extent of making our little Young Oh wonder why Dr. Leenkenstein hadn’t saved him even though he was a doctor. Things could had been very different and Young Oh, instead of becoming an innocent victim, would have lived a perfectly normal life.
It is true that Dr. Leenkenstein wasn’t by his son’s side the moment he was passing away and the malpractice option was an even greater shock. At least Young Oh should had been fine since he had exchanged his son’s last moments for another child’s life, but these facts and his desolate state of mind can never justify his overall approach after the weeping clouds subsided. Dr. Leenkenstein believing that Young Oh was suffering from antisocial personality disorder actually benefited him and he didn’t have the time to think whether it was a misdiagnosis or not. His ego had been fed and his reputation had been exalted as the savior of a child’s life in various ways, but he didn’t approach Young Oh as a father and/or a doctor. He hid Young Oh’s condition (the one Dr. Leenkenstein formed with the passing of time) so that everyone would keep believing that his operation was a success, not a malpractice (it wasn’t, but you know), and that Young Oh was normal. Instead of a treatment method he kept training Young Oh to pass for normal while transforming him into an artificial intelligence figure deciphering others’ feelings (not empathizing) and replying accordingly (without feeling). Dr. Leenkenstein’s approach through Young Oh’s normalization process is what made him acquire his prestige throughout the years. What is even sadder is that Dr. Leenkenstein (he had already adopted Young Oh believing that the surgery wasn’t a success) would have achieved pretty much the same and even more had Young Bae told him that his surgery was a success (something everyone believed since he had hidden the “malpractice” factor) and the most important thing is that Young Oh would have remained perfectly fine and would have grown up properly. I said that he would have achieved even more because happiness would had been something more palpable in a healthy father-son relationship and Dr. Leenkenstein wouldn’t have lived in regret.
At the end of the day, Dr. Leenkenstein supporting the regenerative medicine all along the way wasn’t to preserve Dong Jae’s humanitarian values, but to chase away his own demons and indirectly atone for his mistakes. The “perfect” world was an illusion, he did his best to forge the perfect mask, not for Young Oh, but for himself. The “perfect” world was just a wall preventing Young Oh from treasuring the gifts of life and it collapsed along with the “emotionally” opaque sketches. At that point, only Young Oh’s office would feel like home. After a sleepless night, Young Oh requested a mortality conference and Dr. Leenkenstein pointed out that the most important lesson, in medical cases when the survival possibilities are very low, isn’t an answer to what went wrong, but the fact that the doctor did his best. After everyone left the moment of truth had arrived. I have already said it before, but saying it once more won’t really hurt, especially now that we’re gradually reaching the end. Young Oh always pays back those who hurt him in their own coin and the mortality conference wasn’t a random decision. Just like Dr. Leenkenstein and the ethics committee had kicked Young Oh out of the hospital during the drama’s first half, the moment had arrived for Young Oh to speak the truth and only the truth inside a place that is of utmost importance for doctors; the mortality conference auditorium.
Young Oh had stopped performing CPR on his patient because Dr. Leenkenstein had turned him into someone who was unable to empathize with his patient in such a crucial moment. Young Oh couldn’t feel what the patient was feeling and he was being overran by the fear of making him rely on life support for his remaining time out of selfishness. Young Oh really wanted to save his life, not condemn him to quadriplegia. Inside the mortality conference auditorium only facts do the talking and exoneration isn’t an option. It was also the first time Young Oh referred to him as Dr. Lee Gun Myung instead of “father.” The patient’s wife was mourning her husband’s loss and the fact that he had suffered up to the very last moment was even more tormenting, but she gave Young Oh a cellphone with her husband’s last message to him.
His next destination would be Min Jae who wasn’t only hopeful that Young Oh might be able reclaim everything that was lost since his damage wasn’t permanent and was the outcome of his traumatic experiences, she also wanted to help him and start over with him. Young Oh’s approach was tranquil this time and reconciled with her in his own way, but he never talked about starting over since it would never be an option for him. All this time Young Oh’s body was wherever he’d go to, but his mind had never left the ER room where his patient’s last moments took place. He kept reliving that scene until he decided to watch the video which wasn’t even close to the worst case scenario Young Oh was afraid of. The patient was thankful towards Young Oh, not only for being the first one listening to his feelings and concerns, but for being there for him in his last moments and reassured him that he had kept his promise. Young Oh’s first post-operational tears would be for one of his patients and while he was processing them his body was in so much shock it made him feel like choking. Young Oh crying in silence was a masterpiece of a scene that granted him the luxury of tears.
Young Oh was so lost after such an intense and life-changing experience, his tough shell had finally cracked and he could only head towards his Wi-Fi that played her own part in his development. One’s lips may lie, but the body can’t. While he was uttering that everything had happened because of her, from struggling to save his patient to leaving behind his lonely safe zone and from hoping due to his tears to despising her more than anyone else in the world, he couldn’t support his words with actions because the hope through his tears was stronger and the magnetic field between them was so powerful at that point he could only place his hands on her shoulders. Even though he tried to escape Jin Sung wouldn’t leave him alone in his hour of need and that beauteous back-hug all of us were craving for finally took place before our very eyes in the most emotionally eloquent way. “Whatever you say, I hear it as “I love you,” I am sorry, but I can’t do as you asked, I can’t leave you alone.” It was a grand declaration of love, but what makes it even more special is the fact that even though it came out of Jin Sung’s lips it was representing both of them. She wasn’t only the voice of her own feelings, she was giving voice to Young Oh’s glowing emptiness that was slowly being invaded by all these warm emotions. Young Oh’s “if it weren’t for you” monologue wasn’t a plea for help, it was a plea for love and placing his hand over hers by the end of the scene sealed the moment in the most representative way that could easily outweigh a hundred kisses. Jin Sung soothed his internal eruptions and chased away his turmoil with her purity of emotion. A painful and lengthy chapter had reached the end and not only a new day, but also a new era, would dawn.
The next day Young Oh received his patient’s present and the way he opened the box was so hilarious he was giving you the impression as if he was trying to figure out whether it was an explosive mechanism or not; and it was! His outfit while becoming Jin Joo’s godfather pretty much owned and he made the church an even brighter place far away from prudish and pasteurized “rules and regulations” that work as a display window and miss the spiritual point. Young Oh caressing the baby’s cheek was overly cute and he looked like a super cool and caring godfather! I really like that t-shirt and ever since Young Oh put it on and supported it all along the way he returned to his good old “I’m not a player, but I am” Jin Sung oriented attitude trying so hard to hold her hand. Complaining like a little child about her food obsession that was actually preventing him from accomplishing his hand-holding mission was a piece of art, the way his hand was trying to sneak into hers looked like he was trying to play a weird and invisible instrument, something between the guitar and the piano! Eventually, Jin Sung held his hand and his new style shocked everyone inside the hospital. Bodies were falling, jaws were dropping and eyes were trying to figure whether it was the one and only truth or just an illusion. In a few words, Young Oh pretty much owned!
∇ One more piece of the puzzle in the shape of a game. ∇
Everything started as a dating game between Sung Eun and Shi Hyun, but in fact it was her way of bringing to the surface some medical cases someone (coughs, Soon Ho, coughs) was trying to protect at all costs. It was a serious game that would bring closer together the Hyunsung medical center doctors in a way nobody would ever expect and they’d even help Young Oh, something quite rare! Young Oh was interested in Sung Eun winning his bet at first (Young Oh has some betting history with Jin Sung), but he eventually set it aside because he wanted to find a way to save Jin Sung. In the meantime, Green Pharmacy had taken over the research lab and the next step would be to focus on patients that needed a lung transplant (something they could get after someone else would pass away). The flow of events had enraged Suk Joo who had (finally) become aware of Soon Ho’s real intentions; profit and power. Soon Ho admitted that he had murdered Dong Jae and that he would do the same to everyone else who would try to ruin his plans, but Suk Joo was one step ahead and had recorded their conversation. Suk Joo had given up being a good person and was trying to be a good doctor, he couldn’t let Soon Ho ruin the very soul and essence of the regenerative medicine.
Jin Sung’s condition was deteriorating, her heart was fine but the medication she had been taking for years had made her develop pulmonary fibrosis. She hid the truth from Young Oh and pretended that she was there to see him. Young Oh urging her to find a way to call him and definitely neither “doctor” nor “ajussi” was a pleasant break, but while she was leaving Jin Sung collapsed. As expected, Suk Joo would be her attending doctor, but the most beautiful part in difficult times like these was that Young Oh would be by her side while stroking her hand; gently. If the treatment wouldn’t work Jin Sung would have to wait for a lung transplant. Her opinion wasn’t different from Young Oh’s, waiting for a transplant that may never come would be tormenting and nobody knew when/if luck would smile at her.
The patients from Shi Hyun’s “game” had something common with Jin Sung, all of them underwent heart valve surgery, but the rare lesions that were found on these three patients were pointing towards the regenerative medicine’s direction. Jin Sung taking the regenerative medicine would be the perfect chance for the research team to test its lung-oriented treatment possibilities, but it would also bring to the surface the fact that Suk Joo wasn’t certain about the regenerative medicine’s effectiveness due to his mistrust towards Soon Ho’s shady moves, but he was still hoping that everything would flow well; both for Jin Sung and the medicine itself. All Jin Sung desperately wanted was to live, but would she survive if she’d receive the regenerative medicine? Only Suk Joo could truthfully answer to her question, but he didn’t have an answer. Eventually, he’d decide to put his trust in the stem cell treatment research because he had to save Jin Sung.
∇ Your promise, my life. ∇
Jin Sung had collapsed and the ECMO wouldn’t help her last for too long. Young Oh would keep studying trying to find a way to save her, but when he was by her side they didn’t have to ask meaningless questions. Young Oh could see the despair that was carved on her face, but he could also taste a sense of loss through the possibility of Jin Sung leaving this world behind. He reminded her of her promise to never leave him and all Young Oh needed was for Jin Sung to keep it, but the moment he found out that she had decided to take the regenerative medicine he couldn’t stand still.
Even though Suk Joo wanted to save her he was refusing to see the whole picture and the punches he received were well-deserved and well-executed, you can think of them as a violent alarm clock that would take him out of the bubble he’d be living in. Suk Joo became aware of everything that had been kept a secret from him and he could finally understand that the regenerative was a wolf in sheep’s clothing that would kill Jin Sung just like the other three patients who underwent heart valve surgery too. His meeting with Soon Ho wasn’t helpful, it perplexed things even more. Suk Joo was the one who had reassured everyone that the regenerative medicine’s third clinical stage was safe and if he’d expose the truth he would lose his medical license. One thing is for certain, Suk Joo would never turn Jin Sung into a guinea pig that would eventually pass away due to the medicine’s fatal aftereffects even if he would have to disobey Soon Ho’s orders. I think it’s time for him to return to being a good person instead of a soulless “good” doctor based on falsified test results.
The doctors of Hyunsung medical center would have to join forces for an illegal and dangerous operation that was granting a high survival rate to the patient. It was Young Oh’s specialty, but this time he’d see things from the other side of the fence since he had decided to donate one of his lungs in order to save Jin Sung’s life. “Life, although it may only be an accumulation of anguish, is dear to me, and I will defend it. (Frankenstein – Mary Shelley). His smile while being next to her was subtle and hopeful and when he said “shall we begin?” while staring at her was depicting how meaningful and irreplaceable Jin Sung was to him. In death, organ donation is a last act of kindness. In life, offering one of your most essential organs to save someone else’s life is an expression of unconditional love and utmost caring. We’re talking about a unique and rare medal getting to grace a first male lead’s jacket almost once in a lifetime. Young Oh earned it with his beautiful mind and even more beautiful heart, the one that still has to figure out how to dance to the tempo of love, but what is an increased pulse in front of something so pure?
P.S. or Anatomy of a Heart: Doctors remained in the first place with 18.5%, Monster rated 10.7%, but Beautiful Mind unexpectedly rated only 2.8%; its worst ratings to date. I really thought that things would get slightly better now that it’s reaching the end, did the episode reduction dishearten even more the Korean audience? I don’t know what to say, life’s a joke sometimes. Just like the 11th one felt like a blending of Beautiful Mind’s original version’s 11th/12th episodes the same applied to the 13th one with the difference that it was even more concrete and felt like everyone worked really hard to maintain the drama’s consistency and most meaningful aspects. There were scenes and development areas that needed more time to unfold, but we all know the reasons why something like that didn’t happen and I am not really complaining. The “what if” factor remains, but our couple’s magic trespasses the clouds effortlessly and makes me long for Beautiful Mind’s swansong even more even though it means that I will have to say goodbye. Once again, the OST was adorning even more the fragile nature of the scenes that were craving for its floating heartfelt melodies and something tells me that “Dirt” will haunt me for a long time. At this point I don’t want to make any assumptions, after all we’re just a few hours away from the final episode. All I want is for Jin Sung and Young Oh to be safe (and eventually happy, together)!
“You made me a promise.
You promised you won’t leave me alone.
Keep your promise.
That’s all I need.”
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